I recently learned that I have Pluto conjunct midheaven – and I won’t pretend to understand all of what that means, but from what my astrologer friends have told me, it makes a lot of sense. Apparently most people never experience that transit because Pluto moves so slowly, and the gist is this – part of my whole life purpose “right now” (for awhile) is transforming. The energy is all about major life changes, making sure my life reflects my true purpose, spiritual transformation, don’t get too attached to anything in my business because big shifts are coming, my soul purpose needs to be expressed in my public life — Pluto being a highly transformative, intense energy, associated with death and rebirth, spiritual growth, and so on. Basically, dramatic changes in my life direction.

I’ve been thinking and talking a lot about ending cycles and starting new ones – I feel this so palpably in my life right now. However, I’ve also always felt like that was the overall theme of my life. I know a lot of people go through periods of death and rebirth, but for me it feels consistent. It has felt like that my whole life, more palpably so in the last 10 years – I’m just always going through a rebirth. With my health, my business, my relationships. It’s exhausting. It doesn’t help that I’m currently living on my Pluto line according to my astrocartography – so I’m really getting hit with that Pluto energy! 

Transformation as a way of living, as a way of being, has taught me a lot about detachment. It has forced me to surrender, it has forced me to be adaptable, it has taught me to always trust that if it’s not this, it’s something better. I would not be able to make it through without anchoring into that knowing. My friends always joke that my life is like a reality TV show – so much happens every day. So much changes every day. And that’s one of the reasons why relationships are a little different for me – if I’m out of touch with someone for a bit, it often feels like too much has happened to even catch up. I can barely keep up. 

With that transformation energy so alive in my life, I’ve learned to be okay with outgrowing things. Being okay with it doesn’t mean I don’t feel emotions around it, but it means that I accept it and feel my feels. I know how to move through the process, to honor the chapter, to open myself to the next one. I used to make myself wrong for outgrowing people, places, situations, parts of my career – and it led to physical sickness in my body. It led to anxiety and depression. Because I was keeping myself stuck in situations just for the sake of not moving too quickly, making myself feel guilty for outgrowing people, taking on projections, judgments, and conditioning that I was changing too fast — but that’s just who I am. The next chapter of my life has an entirely different flavor, and the guides have explained that my biggest life lessons are all jam-packed into a concentrated period of time, rather than spread out throughout my lifetime like most people. That doesn’t mean I won’t have more life lessons, but I’ve been in the middle of intensive training, so to speak. Hit it all early, and I’m grateful for it. I went through periods where I thought I resented not having “normal” teenage years, a “normal” college experience, a “normal” young 20s experience – but the truth is I really don’t resent it. I was happy to skip ahead even though it was “hard” – I feel like this is the juicy stuff. 

Anyway, here’s what I know about transformation as a way of living – because things shift and change so quickly, I have to be very self aware every day and check in on if what was resonant for me before truly is still resonant for me now. The truth is that things can change overnight. Relationships can change in an instant – new people walk in, “old” people walk out. What I was passionate about before, I could be bored with today. So I’ve learned to just flow with it and honor what’s true for me now. I feel grateful, honestly, that I very much get pushed there. I really couldn’t resist it if I tried. Because that’s the thing – most people don’t live the lives they want because they choose to stay where they’re at. To get to the next chapter, we have to close the old one. We have to release what isn’t aligned with the future us. We have to be honest with ourselves about what we’ve outgrown. We have to be okay with things changing. How many people crave a different life, but they’re unwilling to make a change? Most. 

So, while many people dread Pluto, we’ve become good friends. And while transformation might be scary for some, I’ve learned that leaning into it is the fastest way to living my desires.