I’m right in the middle of channeling the second book in the Monarch Being series, and it has come with a lot of surprises. It’s actually turning into a third book that I wasn’t anticipating, because too much information is coming through to all fit in this one. 

Background – the Monarch Being told me years ago that they were going to write at least three books through me – one about manifestation, one about love, and one about healing. It has been very obvious to me throughout my life that whenever I’m going to teach about something, I’m going to live it first – those personal experiences connect me to deeper compassion, they give me firsthand stories to relate to people more clearly, and they give me examples to use when explaining any channeled information. I have to live it first, otherwise it’s too easy. ;P

It’s the difference between trying to learn something through reading a book versus actual lived experience. The lived experience is an embodied knowing. If I just channeled everything without living it, would I actually learn it? It’s totally different when the teachings are embodied, and in fact, it’s what allows me to open to channeling information. All of the wild experiences I’ve had in my life are what allow me to be a clear channel – otherwise certain information would get blocked from coming through. And there are still things I know I won’t access until I live certain experiences. 

Anyway, my entire life was about manifestation before and during writing & releasing Manifestation Mastery – I learned manifestation from a lot of angles I didn’t expect, but that was a topic I was more comfortable with. I’ve had a lifetime of practice releasing, raising my vibration, manifesting, etc.

After that, I knew the next book was about love, and I got nervous. This is different than before, because I felt very prepped for Manifestation Mastery ahead of time. With this book, I’m going through “school” while I’m channeling it.

I will say – it never ceases to amaze me how the universe works.  There was a distinct shift in everything that came into my reality after Manifestation Mastery was released – literally everything was about relationships. All of my clients were coming to me about relationships, my social media feeds were suddenly all about relationships, all of my close friends were going through big relationship transitions, my personal life got turned upside down as I came face to face with new soul connections, and I’ve been pushed to learn a lot of lessons, and see relationships in different ways. We’re also in a 6 year in numerology, so there’s that too. This book is triggering for me – to write, to read, to understand, because romantic relationships have always been my “weakest” spot. 

What I mean by that is that I sort of always avoided them. I did not prioritize dating. I often avoided people who I knew wanted to date me, and I didn’t really know why. I’ve had some amazing relationships that I’m so grateful for – they really taught me how to love and how to be loved, and of course taught me a lot about myself. But I also know it’s much easier for me to be single than to be in a relationship. I always felt like I was far too comfortable being single – I watched as my friends always craved finding their partner, and I was never really concerned. We all have our biggest points of growth – for some people it’s family, for others money, for some career, for others friendships, for some health, and others romantic relationships. For many of us, a combination. And I’ve always known that my biggest growth point was in romantic relationships – other things were easier for me to focus on. 

About four years ago I decided I really needed to break up that “avoidant” energy, so I started dating a lot. Whenever I can feel something I’m avoiding or have fear around, I like to cannonball right in. It was through that process that I realized the problem – I had already decided it was going to be difficult to find someone who could really see me & meet me where I was at. I realized places where my communication was really poor. I realized that I was dulling myself down to make other people more comfortable. I became aware of fears I didn’t know I had. I realized how scared I was to really let someone in. You know…all the relationship stuff. And I became fascinated by it – understanding relationship dynamics, masculine & feminine energy, communication breaks, the psychology of attraction, vibrational resonance in relationships. It’s interesting to me that I was always fascinated with relationships (for awhile in college I wanted to be a relationship therapist), yet I did not prioritize them myself. I preferred to observe them. 

But to channel this book, I had to get thrown into the ring in terms of really understanding myself – because that’s what dating is. The book is about love in general.- the frequency of love, love in friendships, family, romantic life – but it also goes into different types of soul connections – soulmates, karmic soulmates, twin flames, and so on. I have been pummeled with the most bizarre experiences in a short amount of time so I would have firsthand experience discerning the different types of soul connections – it’s one thing to hear it, it’s another to live it. 

So love, friendship, relationships, communication – this is all top of mind for me. I’m seeing it play out in so many ways in my own life, and seeing as everyone close to me is having a topsy turvy time period with love as well – all of which I’m learning from. 

Anyway, channeling this book has really ripped me open personally. In good ways. But it’s a lot slower for me than writing the last one because I am REALLY moving through it personally, integrating what’s being shared, and having to really step out of my comfort zone and live out experiences as initiations to be able to bring all the information through. 

I have a lot to say about it, but here are the things I’ve been thinking about most. 

1. People spend a lot of time creating stories about people and relationships, and then perceiving and choosing based on those stories. Most of those stories are not true – they are projections from our past, from conditioning, from our fears. Instead of creating stories in our heads, we need to honor the truth of what’s being shown in our reality, from our interactions with that person. 
2. Let people show you their truth. People tend to fall in love with illusion.
3. Most people mistake obligation, commitment, infatuation, and / or codependency for love.
4. Relationships break down, don’t work, or don’t even start because of poor communication. This is obvious, but it has become so clear to me that not understanding how to communicate – how to share or to listen – is the reason why so many people get caught up in stories, in projections, in assumptions. People are AFRAID to communicate – we’ve been taught that clear communication is too much, too direct, and that’s why relationships break down. Ask people questions directly. Express what you need. Be clear. All of this wishy washy stuff, questioning what is unknown – we need to COMMUNICATE. 
5. We have to learn how we want to be loved and be willing to express that. A lot of us are looking for something, but we don’t even know what we are looking for. A lot of us have unspoken expectations about how we want to be loved – people don’t know until you tell them. Know yourself well, and gift someone the key to how you feel loved. Don’t expect someone else to figure out what you don’t even know about yourself. Ask other people how they best receive love. 
6. Part of love is forgiveness, but sacrificing yourself isn’t love.
7. Release expectations around what it will feel like to meet your *person* – it’s often the person you never expected or saw coming. Most people are attracted to what’s familiar, which usually isn’t what’s actually ideal to them. 

I have a lot to say about all of these, but that’s where I’m at for now.